If you read any of the information out there about Pastor's wives, one of the prevailing issues that they face is loneliness. The reasons for this are many. A few that I have heard are: that people are afraid to be totally themselves around you or you don't feel like your true self meets up with the expectations that other people have for you. Whatever my reasons, I found myself feeling this way this week. I think part of it was that my husband and best friend, Bill, has been even busier than his normal this week because he is trying to finish a class he is taking before all of the programs at the church get into full swing for the fall. I haven't seen much of him this week. I also think I am anticipating my kids going back to school. It was probably a combination of a lot of things. No matter what the reasons were, I was in a lonely funk this week. I tried not to let it show, but I definitely had a talk with God about it.
As is His normal response to my whining, He basically let me know that I needed to settle down and let Him do His thing in my life.
God showed me that I have a lot of really special people in my life and through a few of them He made me feel blessed this week:
I had lunch with my friend Janet. She is such a good listener and she is so much like a Mom to me (which is great because my Mom lives so far away and I miss her). I miss Janet a bunch now too because she has moved and doesn't attend our church anymore.
My friend Sheree was a great example to me this week of overcoming the weak spots in our life and constantly working on our faith! She is a very strong lady. I love Sheree because we are a lot alike!
Connie was a special blessing to me and my girls this week. She is an awesome hair stylist and she is generous enough to cut my girl's hair for free. Not only does she make them look great, but she makes them feel special while she does it. They love to go to Connie's and I love her for it!
As a Pastor's wife, it is refreshing to have a friend who is not a part of your church that you can share things with. This is my very special friend Bonnie. She is so genuine and caring. I love her a bunch!
Kelle is my baby sister and very best girlfriend! I wish she lived closer to me, but then I'm sure we would just get in trouble together! I know I can tell her anything and she won't care if I sound crazy! She is the best!
There are many more friends who are special to me. These are just some that God used to let me know I am not alone in this crazy journey of life!!
I was just having a silly self-pity party. I guess we all have them sometimes.
Thanks God for always knowing what I need!
I have so much to learn!
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Hey Kim...
Thanks for sharing your heart in the matter of challenges that people, let alone pastor's wives, face. I do think that people put an unfair expectation on pastoral families, and tend to possibly think that they are "super humans", or "impervious to negative feelings". I sometimes hesitate to tell people these things because I don't want them to lose confidence in me. Maybe I am doing them a big disservice by maybe letting them think that I am something that I am not...which is a human being. A human being saved by the Grace of God, but a human being non-the-less.
Thanks for sharing Kim...and if you ever feel lonely again, know that there are many many people out there that love you, and think the world of you and your family.
I look forward to reading more.
D <><
Phil. 2:5
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