My husband has been blogging for a while now and I never really thought it was something I would be interested in doing, but here I am! I guess I need a place to express my thoughts because I have been having trouble sleeping lately. My mind is swirling with thoughts that keep me awake. Maybe if I blog them, I will be able to sleep!
My life verse if Psalm 46:10, "Be still and know that I am God..." There are so many areas of my life that I am learning to quit fussing about and give to God completely:
Being a Pastor's wife is probably one of the most interesting places in which you can find yourself. My husband has been in full-time ministry for about seven years and I am still amazed at how much I learn every day! I am constantly learning things about God, myself and people. Some are things that I ask God to teach me and some of them are things that I would rather not know.
I would rather not know about a man who leaves his family and everything he knows because he doesn't want to grow up, get a job and take responsibility for his actions. I would rather not know about a young wife who really wants to follow God, but chooses not to obey God in even the simplest of areas in her life. I would rather not know about a husband with a wonderful wife and three children who doesn't want to give up his internet porn.
That is where I ask God to teach me something. I long to know how to love these people the way God does and to see them like He sees them. I want Him to teach me how to encourage and not judge. These things can only come from God's power within me because they don't come naturally to me.
I truly do love the people of Willow Community Church almost like they are my kids. I am so proud of the growth that we have seen in lives over the last year and a half (God has been very busy doing His thing!), but it would also be easy to become discouraged at the decisions that some are making in their lives.
My prayer list is long these days. That fact may never change, but I pray that God bathes the attitude behind these prayers with a heart of love for people and with a true desire to see God glorified in the way that I treat them!
God is telling me to "Just be still!". Quit feeling so discontent about other people's choices and how you are feeling about them. Give this worrying spirit to Me because I AM GOD!
I have so much to learn!
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This is something that my Mom used to say to me in church. I think it is something God says to me everyday! This is a place for me to express some thoughts I am having about the things God is teaching me (or He is trying to teach me!)
"Be still and know that I am God ..."
Psalm 46:10 is my favorite verse in the Bible. I have learned so much by trying to apply it to my life. Every day I have to make a conscious decision to rest in God and let Him be the Lord of my life!
About Me
- Kim Lawson
- Lansing, Michigan
- I am Christ's child, Bill's wife of twenty-two years and Cassie and Bailey's Mom. I was placed on this earth to make God smile! Sometimes it is a smile because He is proud of me and sometimes the smile comes with a shake of His head because He can't believe what I'm up to!
2 comments:
Hey, Hey! Welcome to the Blogoshere!! Your world has just changed!
You are such a wonderful asset to Willow and you are and are becoming a fantastic pastor's wife. You are also going to be an awesome minstry leader for the Women Of Willow!
I also believe you are a great asset but not just to Willow, but to the world around you. Mom and I comment often about how proud we are of your committment, dedication and sacrifice for the Lord, your family, your church and those around you. The things God is revealing to you will simply make you stronger at all of this.
I have learned to release the troubles and circumstances of others to God and simply be a conduit through which His power and wisdom can flow to them. Without that I would be handicapped by the emotions which would overcome me. I must love and care without the chains of entanglement or responsibility for their situation. Otherwise, I become codependent with them and then I too am captured by their problems. This has truly been a revelation and a source of freedom for me. I hope it can be the same for you.
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